It's a beautiful day in the neighbourhood...

I suddenly have the Mr.Rogers song in my head…but it is helping me remember what a beautiful day it is today and the blessings we have. All this despite the deep funk I seem to be in lately. Why am I here? Why am I doing what I’m doing? Is there something else I should be doing? What? These are all questions that I’ve had for as long as I can remember. Always wanting what’s on the other side of the fence wondering if the grass is indeed greener. And despite my constant restlessness and desire for change, I remain steadfast, in that which I don’t like, stewing quietly and wondering L


Here are the various other “careers” I have contemplated:

• Pastry chef
• Food blogger
• Writer
• Musician
• Singer
• Decorator
• Feng Shui consultant
• Missionary worker
• Translator (need to learn another language though first…hehehe)
• Travel blogger
• Lifestyle blogger
• Student
• Librarian
• Bookstore owner
• Coffeshop/bakery owner
• TV Host
• Healthy cookie baker/blogger (gluten-free cookies anyone?)
• Cookie baker who bakes cookies from different countries that will be featured on a travel/food blog (The Travelling Cookie) that evolves into a cookbook which is a best seller that makes me famous, thereby being offered invitations for guest spots on popular shows on TV (Rachel Ray anyone?), which kick starts my own TV show where I am traveling the world, learning about, eating and baking fabulous cookies, which I will continue to blog about and turn into a book about my fabulous life. This exposure opens many doors of opportunity for writing, cooking, learning new languages (or practicing the one I’m currently learning) and eventually paying it forward by helping organizations involved in missionary work….all the while being a student of languages and design, feng shui’ing my way around the planet. Oprah will take notice and invite me on her show where I will meet a fabulous entertainer/producer who will invite me to an event where they will discover my hidden musical talents and invite me to be a guest singer on their latest CD which will launch my aspiring music/singing career…HAHAHAHAHA

 If nothing else, I at least have a healthy & active imagination!! I was just imagining how many of the career list items can I combine into one fabulous thing? Nobody ever accused me of having little dreams.  I actually think my problem is I dream too big and want too much and can’t decide on anything and thereby do nothing…but dream. How boring & depressing is that?

So…am I having a mid-life crisis, or is it normal to still be wondering what I want to do when I “grow-up” (despite the fact 40 is just around the corner…T-3years!). How did I end up in my current career? Did I ever like it? If yes, what did I like about it (besides the paycheck that is)? Am I disillusioned enough to learn about something else? Have I attended any training sessions or courses? Other than dream about it, have I done anything? What will motivate me to actually make a change? Where do my true desires lie? If I’m not motivated enough to change my situation that I claim to hate (hmm, well hate is a little strong), do I really hate it all that much? And if not, why am I wasting my time worrying/thinking/meditating on it? Why not just be happy with were I’m at and move on?

So…let’s go back to remembering what a beautiful day it is. What about today did I enjoy? Going for a walk in the park at lunchtime was heavenly, didn’t want to go back to work at all…hahaha. Yesterday I also enjoyed my walk at lunch as well as a walk after my class close to home. Just being outside in the fresh air is so…well…refreshing! It’s a time to just be, I can think happy thoughts, I can dream about things to come, I can dream grand lofty plans that may never come but are fun to think about. The green grass, the beautiful flowers and the mountain-backdrop are pretty fabulous too J I enjoyed my class, I’m learning Spanish. It actually has been on my “to do” list for a long time, something that I actually am active in doing something about changing the situation. Can I do more on that front? Yes! Talk to people in Spanish (I know a few), read more in Spanish, travel to a Spanish-speaking country (working on that – this will also satisfy my “want to travel” dream).

I guess making little changes, day by day, baby step by baby step is the way to go. I’m not totally abandoning my currently life in order to get what’s behind door #2 and foolishly forfeiting a great life for a potentially exciting but possibly questionable life. I acknowledge that I have a great family, a great job and I have more opportunities at my finger-tips than many people on this planet have in their lifetimes.

So lets enjoy today and lets remember to think about the many blessings and opportunities we HAVE rather than worrying about future things that may never (should never) come J And if an opportunity arises that helps you check off another “bucket list” item, even better!! Let’s “grab the bull by the horns” and “live life to the fullest”!

My new mantra: less thinking, more doing…less thinking, more doing…hmmm…I seem to be thinking again…ackgh!!

Have a blessed day!